"My Heart No Longer Skips A Beat"

When you walk in a room
When I hear your voice
When I hear your name
I no longer feel the same

Constantly hearing your name
The sweating of my palms
The song on repeat
All cease to move me

…And my heart no longer skips a beat

I used to hold my breath when you walked in a room
Butterflies in my stomach when I saw you
Dreamt about your face
in my sleep

...And now my heart no longer skips a beat.

Choking back the tears
Thinking about what went wrong
I played it over and over again
A broken record like us

…But my heart no longer skips a beat

The sun has set
On this saga, this tale, this drama that failed.
I draw the line in the sand
I make no unnecessary demands.
You go your way and I go mine.
And this time I wont press rewind.

Fast forward to the next chapter
The story gets better after this
Now, I can put this behind...me.

...Since my heart no longer skips a beat.

Co-Written by Candice Lenoir

The Power of Relationships - Part III (A peek into my future)

This summer I have learned a valuable lesson; never to think that God has done all that He is going to do or capable of doing because therein sets limits. He is always ready to outdo His last exploit and take you higher than before when we believe and trust Him. We just have to be open to receive! You can say that my arms are wide open. This testimony is really a continuation of "The Power of Relationships - Part II" because it took place the following day.

Toya Beasley is the host of 98.7 KissFM - Kiss Inspirations morning show. She and I had plans to meet for the first time face to face during her show at the radio station. After a night and into the morning of slumber partying, eating junk food and laughing hysterically, I had to prepare myself with three hours of sleep to meet Ms. Beasley about The King's Daughters, Inc. I made my way to the station for what I thought would be a simple, "Hi, how are you? This is what I do." As always my BIG GOD had other BIG PLANS in store.

Within about ten minutes of being in the station, Toya had me on the radio talking about TKD. For the rest of her show she introduced me as her special guest. Talk about the favor of God. I was able to introduce my baby, my God-seed to 2 million people several times. It was such a humbling experience, simply because I never saw the opportunity coming.

Toya has a big heart to give and help anyone she can. She is committed to using the platform that God has given her to bless others and bless God! That's everyone's call; to use the gifts, the talents, the access we are given to make God's plans big, big enough to touch all people.

The favor continues...

Tune into Kiss Inspirations on 98.7 Kiss FM at 5am featuring Toya Beasley.

Be Blessed!
Billionairess
Word of the Day: 1 Thessalonians 5:17

Make Me Over - Tonex

Verse 1
You know my other side
I can no longer hide
Let you down so many times
Sin freshly crucifies

Thought that I had a plan
Had it all figured out
But the more that you tried
To be by my side
The more I put you out

Chorus
Lord make me over (3x's)
Make me over again (4x's)

Verse 2
Time after time I failed you
Pierced your side when they already nailed you
Jesus heal my open wounds
I just want to be more like you

Father I let you down
What's not like you just take it out
Reconcile me Jesus
I just want to please you
Wash me and make me whole

Chorus
Lord make me over (3x's)
Make me over again (4x's)

Ending:
Make me over again Lord
Cause I'm tired of my evil ways
And I want to make a change
Make me over Lord

Chorus
Lord make me over (3x's)
Make me over again (until end)

The Power of Relationships Part II (A peek into my future)

I declare that the floodgates of favor are open and as such…the story continues. Coming off of the heels of a successful King’s Daughters experience: Infectious Fire, some of the girls and I decided to have a slumber party. Not a big deal…but we had purpose, which is our lifestyle since we rarely do erroneous activities just to do them.

Our purpose for this slumber party was to create vision boards (inspired by our contagious guest speaker of Infectious Fire Life Coach and TV personality Dee Marshall – http://www.goraisethebar.com/ and founder of Raise the Bar Young Savvy).

However, we chose to set a standard not to slumber in our current circumstances and situations by sow a seed into our prosperous futures. With that in mind we decided to slumber at a New York Hotel. I emailed a family friend of mine and told him of our plans and without delay he booked us a room at the FABULOUS Millennium UN PLAZA Hotel in the center of New York City http://www.millenniumhotels.com/millenniumunplazanewyork/rooms/2-BedroomSuite.html.

When we arrived at the hotel, our reservation was noted that it came from a top level executive and the favor began to flood. Within five minutes of checking we were upgraded twice to a two bedroom suite, complete with two bathrooms, a kitchen and full living room. To top it off we had a panoramic view of the Chrysler Building, Empire State Building and East River in NYC from the 33rd floor. We were on top of the world!

All of the normal al-a-carte services were complimentary. Our room normally that normally cost $1200.00 a night cost 10% of that. A better title for this entry is…”This is How We Roll.” :-)

My heart’s desire and I’m sure yours is as well is to be able to pick up the phone, write and email, send a text and get my needs and wants met. We are each other’s bridge to the other side. I’m training myself to look for the needs of others and meet them or at least be open enough to ask what the need is and meet it. I hope to help you one day!

God Bless!
Billionairess
Verse of the Day: Luke 14:28

The Power of Relationships (A peek into my future)

I recently finished reading the Tipping Point, a great book that I highly recommend (thanks Diondra). The beginning of the book talks about “The Law of the Few: Connectors, Mavens and Salesman.” I—am a Connecter. Very naturally…that’s me. It felt so good to read this book and ingest examples provided by Malcolm Gladwell that were completely real world to me. It all made sense; why I do some of the things I do, and say some of the things I say.

Anyway, getting to the point of connections. I had to attend a friend’s wedding this past weekend here in NYC. The wedding, the bride, the day and all who attended were beautiful. J I waited until the last minute to decide on an outfit to wear just to find that I didn’t really have anything to wear. I know…I know…the woman obsessed with a dress didn’t have anything to wear. Well, I didn’t. Not to a garden wedding at 7pm.

My sister sent me a cute summer dress for my birthday that didn’t fit me quite right from my second favorite retailer, BCBG Max Azria. I went to exchange the dress, hoping to find something to wear to the wedding. Nothing. I was down to four days left and not much more time to shop. Plus, I was probably still going to need shoes!

I prayed, God, what to do? I need a dress and my budget doesn’t really allow for much right now. Without delay, I got my divine answer. “Ask the owners at Bebenoir (my favorite boutique) to loan you a dress.” Loan me a dress? That directive was way beyond me. Simply, because I rarely ask to borrow anything. But I was being told to ask a retailer to borrow a dress.

I called Fatimah, the co-owner of Bebenoir. “I need a huge favor. I have a wedding to attend on Saturday (it’s Wednesday) and I don’t have the budget for a new dress. Do you all loan out your dresses?” She said, “No, not really. Let me ask Ibrahima (the other owner) what he thinks. In the meantime, come by the shop and I will pull a couple of dress for you to try on.”

Hopeful, I rush uptown to Bebenoir and try on about six dress. To my chagrin, none of them work. “Did you try on this one?” Fatimah hands me a dress. I passed right over it without giving it a second look. I try the dress on. It’s perfect! We both share the joy of the moment. Without giving it a second thought, Fatimah wraps up the dress, puts in a bag, and doesn’t require me to sign anything. I assured her that I would bring the dress back the following week. Wow…

I’m ecstatic! The power of relationships had hit me rock hard. I had been a faithful and loyal customer of Bebenoir since they opened late 2007. Also, in my Connector way, I always found a way to plug the store to a curious lady inquiring about my bracelet or purse that came from the gem of a boutique. I had been sowing seeds into their establishment all along and was now reaping the benefits!

The next day, I received a text message from Fatimah. “Ibrahima wants you to keep the dress. Congrats!” WHAT!! My favorite boutique took a chance and not only loaned their first dress but was giving it to me???

All this because of an established relationship and following the leading of the Holy Spirit…

It also confirmed that this may have been my first complimentary dressing, but it certainly will not be my last. Don’t underestimate the power of relationships!

Blessed! (to be a blessing J)

Billionairess

Verse for the Day: Genesis 12:2

GOD LOVES ME

You may find this strange or ask after reading, "Kristen, you're just now getting this revelation?" Well, yeah sorta of.

After my year long struggle with overcoming depression, one of the promises God made to me was restoration. In this place of restoration, He promised me that I would be better off than I was before my battle began. At first I couldn't see it, but now I see it. It's more than all the wonderful things happening in my life right now...the restoration is about how I see myself.

How do I see myself...as loved.

God loves me
Therefore I love me
And because God loves me, I can love you.

Love your neighbor as you love yourself. In the new testament that is the second most important commandment of a Christian. When I look back on certain relationships I have to ask myself...was I loving that person? No, because I didn't always treat them right. Why didn't I treat them right? Simply because I didn't know how to love. God is love, so it starts with Him. When I realized the amazing, overpowering, overtaking, larger than life love that is God, than I realized that I can love others as God loves me. After this epiphany, I realized that I can also love others. Really love others. A good friend of mine told me that she heard a word from a well known pastor that said we must be compassionate about God's people. That really touched me (ministered to me). Even if you don't love someone, God does. That includes yourself.

There was a time when I didn't have the capacity to love myself, and as a bi-product I couldn't love others. But to know the love of God is to know real love. A love that will die for you, lay down His life for you. That's real love.

The light bulb went off today and mainly because my life has changed so much. I have work to do, but I have come a long way! I can actually say that with confidence. I trust God, I love God, I honor and respect God. With Him there are no insecuries, no hang-ups...just freedom. I'm free to be me.

God loves me and therefore I love me and because I love me, I can love you!

I love you!
The Billionairess

She's Baaaaaack!

Is it too late to say Happy New Year??!?!?! LOL

So...I took some much needed time off to work on a few things. Just letting you know I'm still out here, working ever so hard. I have expanded my endeavors and I am gearing up to give you a full update ASAP!

I miss chit chatting with you getting your feedback.

Till the morrow.

Love you,
Billionairess.