Today, I have filled my ears with sounds from the ocean thanks to you tube. My spirit and my mind were in conflict and not much else was working. No sermons, or inspirational music, or empowerment seminars. Suddenly the calming sound of the ocean popped into my head. To my surprise there were lots videos of just sounds of the ocean. It definitely brought me peace and serenity. I thought of how genius a creator God is and how I can find him in all sorts of places and ways.
Recently, I experienced pain and thought about and the many ways it affects us. Which pain is worst: physical, emotional or mental? Some say it’s the scars you can’t see; emotional pain. Interestingly enough if you listen to a person long enough you begin to see those unseen scars meant to stay out of view.
Any way, I thought about the growing pains that are a part of life. Have you ever watched a plant grow? In elementary school, I was given an assignment to care for a plant and watch it grow. Over weeks and a few months, that’s what I did. Every day with eager excitement, I watched as the seed opened up and pressed its way through the soil contained by a small pot. Then little by little, one leaf at a time sprouted.
Even with the prudent growth of the plant, I noticed the struggle of the stem to press through the soil and reach tall above the planted pot. As I reflected on this process, I wondered in that process of growth and struggle, is this painful for the plant? In the process of development and maturity, is there discomfort?
It sure seems like it. Today, I find rest, peace, joy and understanding in God’s complex simplicities: plants and the ocean.
I also wondered if greatness is created when we experience the most pain. With pain, I have heard writers say that they wrote their best song, painters say they painted their greatest portrait, and people who seemed like they shouldn't have made it rise above all odds to higher heights.
In 2008, I created The King's Daughters, Inc at one of my lowest points. It is one of the things I am most proud of and it didn't just help to heal me. The organization touches the lives of others.
Surely, greatness can be achieved in happiness, but maybe it's pain that requires us to move beyond ourselves to seek the greater. In pain you have to fight for your happiness, your sanity...your life.
I'm worth fighting for. We all are.
Love,
The Growing Billionairess
